Lately I've been just a little uneasy. Uneasy with Jono heading back to war and starting that life again. It was great having him home Brinn and I have been so blessed with him. He is such an amazing man. I'm so thankful for him and his service to our country. However, when he is home, we get back into our routine and life is a little easier. I sleep better that is for sure. I'm not as scared and what not. So I'm just readjusting once again to single mommy and it's going good!
Its been easy and hard. I think that it's life. Some how though when I lay my head down at night I know that as far away as he is, I will be with him again soon. I know that God's put us here for a reason. From every single thing I've dealt with in my life there is always a purpose. We have a purpose on this earth and it's just love and serve Jesus. I'm so thankful for his word and wisdom he has given us.
Tonight I'm sitting here in somewhat fear... I hate tornadoes... storms... sleeping in this house. However, for 365 days I have to face that fear each and everyday. Last spring while facing that fear our home was hit by lighting. Ya I know not a big deal for most... but to be in my basement already in fear then the electricity to go completely out it was very scary for me. The next day realizing what happened and waking up to a complete mess, everything pretty much broken. It was hard. That was the day where I decided it was hard. This was hard, where do I even begin to start. Well through the Grace of God I did it. I made about a hundred insurance claims and we got everything fixed and in the end I was saying Thanks God you really taught me something there. Taught me a lot about Him and myself.
So with that I guess I just think there is nothing I can do to protect my husband. There is no gun big enough to hurt the person that could potentially hurt him. However, we have a God and I believe in Him and in that way I feel I protect him. So when I lay my head on this pillow tonight I will not fill myself with anxiety or fear. I will give that all to God and let him rest in me.
Philippians 4:4-7
I choose to Rejoice in the Lord always... it gets me through.
Love you all
"At night I turn all my problems over to God. I know He's going to be up anyway." =) Love you girls! See you soon!!
ReplyDeleteI read psalm 91 any time I am scared before I go to bed. (I get scared of the dark, scared of strange noises, and scared of being home alone) It overwhelms me with comfort.
ReplyDeleteI memorized Philippians 4:4-9 this past week, I love having God's word written on my heart so that when I need truth, it's like He's speaking to me right then and there. My little travel buddy, everywhere I go, knowing everything that's going through my mind, I can't seem to get enough memorizing in during the day/space in my brain. :P
ReplyDeleteThank you for these words:
We have a purpose on this earth and it's just love and serve Jesus. I'm so thankful for his word and wisdom he has given us.
:)