Trial=Grace

(It all ended this day and this IS GRACE in the making right here) 

I know I blog a lot about our boring little lives... but hey you people look at it so maybe it's not so boring... WARNING this one will be.

I'm reading a book about marriage because we need a little help (wink) don't we all! I was looking at some scripture it has added in and started going through some of my Psalms that I did last year. Almost everything that I had underlined in my book... was about FEAR or DANGER or people dying pretty much. The best part of it all it was days after Jono left. I literally thought the entire time he was gone that he wasn't coming back... which they say is better then Denial and thinking that he isn't really going to War just going on a Vacation! So at least I was prepared... so they say. I don't think anyone is prepared for that. 

However, I just think it's so beautiful the trials God puts us through TRULY beautiful. Knowing when at the time... I was living in Fear not only of God but of life. Being in the house alone and raising Brinn for a year alone what if I messed up? I don't think I did BTW!!! HA! Anyways I'm so so so so grateful for the paths we take when we take them with God and knowing the "if's" would be ok IF we walk with God. Here are most of the ones I had UNDERLINED with Jono's name or something next to them if you want to check them out!

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Psalm 1:6 2:6 3:6 4:7 5:12 9:3 11:1 16:1 61:1-2 64:7 91:4 

and many more! 

Just so grateful for the love I've gained and the person I've become through all our trials there is a purpose as hard and crazy as they can be. There always is a Purpose and to me it's to go RUNNING to God and give it all to Him in the end is alll Grace... which I'm totally soaking up right now!