Someone... once told me to "Embrace the Suck or the Suck will Embrace You." Well this someone was my husband. Lately I've totally been in the dumps. I'm not a dumpy person... at least I don't think I am maybe I am. I'm usually pretty kept together I guess. I cry in my own privacy and my own time. I mean who doesn't.
I did really well the first part of this deployment just with staying positive... and I'm just starting to get mad at the world. Mad that Jon has to be where he is. Mad that my child calls other people Dada. Mad that I have to be alone at night. Mad about a lot of things. That used to not be so bad. Then I think I woke up out of this nasty slump finally today. It's been about a month. I realized what I HAVE. What I have is so amazing.
I have a husband. My daughter has a Dada. I have so much to be thankful for. So from this day forward. I will not be negative. I have a smile on my face... and I will not let anything take away the happiness I have. Not even this deployment. There are Far WORSE things in this world than separation.
Jono told me this today..."I always miss you and Brinn.
Its always there, never goes away, but I try to fill my head with other thoughts, activities, etc so that it doesn't consume me!"
Thank you for everyone who daily lifts me up and encourages me :) Love you all!
HA! Cute Brinn-meter! :)
ReplyDeleteYou're not a crappy person, for feeling crappy. We're human. And you have something that is everlasting, even when Jono or Brinn Marie ISN'T around........soak that thought up! Praying you'll feel His presence more and more every day!
should that have said aren't rather than isn't? HAHA whatev.
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