Miss You Sunday

I had a great day. Very uplifting and positive. From church to my small group there is so much positive encouragement all the time. However, it's impossible to Miss Him. It's not hard, but it's tough. It's not terrible, but it's not fun. It's not alone, but it's lonely. It's not physical, but it's emotional.

I just know what I am, when I'm in His Arms.

I know I'm forgiven.

I know I don't have to carry the weight of everything on my shoulders.

I Miss Him.

He is so Handsome....

My strength rests here.

'My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.' Psalm 62:1-2

Library 101

So yesterday I got out of class and decided it would be fun to take the peanut to the Library. I did thing it could be a little challenging because she doensn't understand that the book shelves at the Big library aren't like the one in her room... meaning she can't pull all the books off and throw them everywhere. Anyways we invited Aunt Amanda and Eli to come it was a blast... Till Brinn wouldn't stop eating crayons and we left with her kicking and screaming :) I'm a great Mom I promise ;)

I love you No Matter What...

Lately I have been thinking a lot about Unconditional Love. What it means and what sacrifices are made for Unconditional Love. I think for any marriage there are many sacrifices from each partner.

For Jono and I the last couple years and pretty much our entire relationship we have made major sacrifices. One being when we first started dating we made the sacrifice to live apart and have a long distance relationship. Somehow we managed to see each other almost every weekend. Little did we know that a week would be NOTHING someday where then a week was a lifetime.

Then becoming young parents we both sacrificed dreams and plans for little Miss Brinn they were worth it too! Jono sold his motorcycles... I was pretty upset he was excited for the cash (that went for the ring)!!! I moved home from Iowa City... not a terrible decision :) Anyways, the point is that we have decided to do this, we have decided to love no matter what. Unconditional love is... It's I love you no matter what. It's I love you through the thick and through the thin. I love you when your happy when you're mad and when you're sad. I love you when you're away and when you're here. I love you no matter what.

Things just with Jono being where he is you think what if... what if he gets hurt... I love him... I love him when he is being a Jerk. When he is being sweet. I love him always there isn't a day that goes by that I don't thank God for him, that I don't pray for him and his safety. I always say no matter what, I love you. I always will. I always have. Unconditional Love.

But God shows his Love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. 

Romans 5:8

Lead Me...

I heard this song today... It's one of my favorites. I love Sanctus Real. It spoke to me... music usually does. My Friend Molly once told me "Cole if you remember school like you remember music you would be so smart". So true, it speaks to me...

I think this song just explains a lot of what I feel with Jono half way across the world... at war. I think that it's hard for him to 'Lead Us' but he is doing a great Job. I want him to know he is leading us even thousands of miles away. Every phone call and email is our hope for each day. Each I love you and give peanut a big kiss. They all lead us right back to him, and along the way just thanking God for every step... every step to the day that he is home in our arms. So enjoy this song I just listen. Love you all.

"May the Lord keep watch between you and me when we are away from each other." Genesis 31:49

Tu Much Fun!

Brinn and I had the day off today, so lucky us we got to just relax and play all day!

Right after her bath I thought it would be fun to get her TuTu out that Nana made her!

She not only hates it she hates looking at it. She isn't crazy about it. Her mommy tired her first one on and it was so meant to be... not this Girl! You can buy your own TuTu here!

Deal

Finally somewhat got this new blog going! I have one follower Amanda! So this is for you!

I changed the name to our blog. It's Operation Sage's. Cheesy I know, but it's our life. I have tried to kind of tried to lay off being so open about being a military wife, and Jono being gone. I don't want people to get sick of hearing about it. Or get the wrong idea.  But this is a blog and it's about my life so I guess if people get sick of it they will stop reading right? So welcome to Operation Sage haha :) as cheesy as it is!

So as most of you know I was planning to student teach this fall. I have gone to GREAT lengths to get into a class at USU (UTAH STATE) ya weird I know. Well got into eventually after hours on the phone and multiple people begging to put me in the class. I got onto the waiting list to find that it's not the right class and it won't count for the credits I need.  I found this out yesterday afternoon. I bawled, bawled like Brinn cries when she hit her head, I cried like a five year old when they want that barbie and they can't get it. Not only for a couple minutes but hours. I talked to Amanda for an hour and cried and screamed and freaked out about it. It was a mess, why, why after all I have done. Why now. To be completely honest I was very upset all I wanted was Jono I just wanted to cry to him, I just wanted him home. I was angry that he had to be away that I have to do every single little thing alone always ALONE.

However after a good council with Amanda we came to the conclusion that it's not our choice. God makes the Path.  Can't he just call me and be like "ah hey Nicole I just wanted to tell you I really don't want you to take that class not in my plan". "Ok God thanks!" haha I'm jk. It would be easier...So i just spent some talking asking what I can do to feel at peace. TRUST.  Amazing how his little plans work out. I was actually planning to babysit for the family that I nanny for in the summer. SO as I'm crying I realize well if I can't get this class it puts me back a semester. I can just nanny this summer instead of taking 18 credits and just relax until my husband comes home. I am so happy with that and totally at peace with this. It's not the end of the world I have a great family, a stinking cute husband ;), and the most perfect daughter. I'm so happy, they can't take that away from me. Iowa State can make me go another semester, make me pay more money. They can't take my degree away though and they can't take the credits I already have. This is what my mama always told me "They can take your house, and your cars and all the material possessions, but they can't take your degree babe so keep plugging away." I know she is amazing :)


'Through the storms we go through, it's the grace that we get at the end of the rainbow that is worth it. It's the outcome and the end result and what we learn. What we gain from each is experience. This year has brought me to that conclusion. Just a storm it too will pass. So I just keep thanking God for the experiences he is given me this year! He knows me better than anyone and will continue to Bless us! God is Good!

We have Moved!

SO as all of you if anyone is looking at my blog anymore... probably not. So haha anyways, this is really messed up I'm trying to fix some things. I obvioulsy posted all of our other blogs, because it would have bothered me not to have all the others... I don't know why... just would. So here we go new blog!!! I'm excited thanks for following :)

Framing 101

Jono has kept himself pretty busy in the Stan. He has been doing a lot of what he did back home. He is helping to build up their COP and framing a little and teaching others how to frame… including the A&A and A&P. So here are some fun little pictures!!!









Eating some afgan food on ‘break’… Gross





Nice Bench Jono… I love my little handy man I have a list of things for him to build me when he gets home! Lucky him

My Soldier

Lately I have really been missing my man. I mean who wouldn’t right He is pretty amazing! That is all for today… Just missing you Jono…

SO I thought I would share him with you all






Stay at home dad He wishes…
Jono and Tucker!
So I told you Jono I would NEVER let you live this down. This was the night before Jono left. We stayed up all night Baked and played a billion games of cribbage. So after about 20 games I said let’s do best out of three. So He won the first game I won the second… this was the third game. I got up to get some ‘Alyssa Bars’ out of the stove and he CHEATED. YES CHEATED he moved his peg forward not one not two FIVE PLACES. I couldn’t even believe it because of course I counted before I left the table… I caught him and it was GREAT THE GLORY I FELT IS just breath taking… So he moved his little peg back… it’s funny because he reminded me so much of my brother it’s not even funny. SO unfair and they can’t handle it when they get beat.
I used to beat Alex in about everything .Nascar on PS2, Speed, pretty much everything we ever played and he would like punch me and beat me up haha because I was so good and I loved it. Well this was another one of those moments but with my husband. He was just glaring at me from across the table and as I celebrated and ran around the house he pretended like it was no big deal… we’ll see how long it takes for him to check this blog and find this post haha!!!
Jono’s tat he got in Mississippi… totally not planned just spontaneous side of Us Love it though!!
Love you all, sorry this is a long post!

My Soldier

Lately I have really been missing my man. I mean who wouldn’t right He is pretty amazing! That is all for today… Just missing you Jono…

SO I thought I would share him with you all






Stay at home dad He wishes…
Jono and Tucker!
So I told you Jono I would NEVER let you live this down. This was the night before Jono left. We stayed up all night Baked and played a billion games of cribbage. So after about 20 games I said let’s do best out of three. So He won the first game I won the second… this was the third game. I got up to get some ‘Alyssa Bars’ out of the stove and he CHEATED. YES CHEATED he moved his peg forward not one not two FIVE PLACES. I couldn’t even believe it because of course I counted before I left the table… I caught him and it was GREAT THE GLORY I FELT IS just breath taking… So he moved his little peg back… it’s funny because he reminded me so much of my brother it’s not even funny. SO unfair and they can’t handle it when they get beat.
I used to beat Alex in about everything .Nascar on PS2, Speed, pretty much everything we ever played and he would like punch me and beat me up haha because I was so good and I loved it. Well this was another one of those moments but with my husband. He was just glaring at me from across the table and as I celebrated and ran around the house he pretended like it was no big deal… we’ll see how long it takes for him to check this blog and find this post haha!!!
Jono’s tat he got in Mississippi… totally not planned just spontaneous side of Us Love it though!!
Love you all, sorry this is a long post!